2014: I haven’t really treated for about three years now. Honestly, i feel wayyy better not on treatment . But I have come to this weird level of acceptance.. Not giving up or in..just accepting that where I am in the moment is where I am. Like if i have a hard day..I hate it..but I just rest for that day. If I have a better then baseline day..I go for it..go do stuff..get out, do what i can even if I pay the price for it later.
After six years of lyme treatment and one stroke later…I learned that life is short and you dont know what is going to happen, on treatment or off.. So I just take each day, thank God for it, and then live it.
The ONE thing i have found that helps me is juicing. It does not cure me, it does not get rid of all my symtpoms.. But what it does do is replace all the vitamins and minerals that being chronically ill must suck up. Because when I juice, i get this big boost of energy, and I can shower, dress, go out to walmart.. as compared to my previous ten years of being bedridden or homebound.
So I thought about what I wanted out of life.and at my age..just to be functional enough to survive and shower and be able to do daily acitivities like cook …were what was important to me. Of course the MOST important thing right now is being able to spend time with my kids and granddaughter.
Now other people are at different stages in their lives so some might push harder them me on treatment..which i totally understand and we all react differently to different treatments. So im not at all saying anyone should do what Im doing and not treat..but im just saying everyone is different. There is no cure as of yet..and there are a whole lot of treatments to go through to see what might help.
This was just my conclusion after a lifetime of beings sick. I have to learn to live with what I have the best way that I can.
Bravo! I remember a movie once called City Slickers with Billy Crystal. Jack Palance was an old cowboy and in one scene he had a little powwow with Crystal. Palance tells Crystal "the Secret to Life is ONE thing, just ONE thing... you stick to that and everything else doesnt mean $hit"
ReplyDeleteCrystal says, " well, what is the ONE thing? "
Palance says, "that's what YOU need to figure out".
Lisa, for some is fame and glory...being a strong athelete, having a brilliant career or being a pillar of the community. For some it is trecking across continents, aiding the poor and helpless, or building a life on faithful ministry. For some it is partying and having fun and being social, to feel nature and live WITH it, or another to simply OWN the most in life to feel successful. For another it is seeing the world and traveling. What ever makes us not always MORE , but ENOUGH. That is the ONE thing.
Your photo says it all...throughout this long trek it has always been the same. You are sensitive, and forgiving and truthful and human and caring BUT will stil fight to the end for what your ONE thing is. Family.
Me too. Me too:)