Saturday, May 3, 2025

May is Lyme Disease Awareness Month

May is Lyme Disease Awareness Month


It is also Fibromyalgia, Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome, Multiple Chemical Sensitivity Month and many more health challenges that I have or can relate to. 

So I thought I'd compile a bunch of what I hope is helpful information to you. 

Do you know how to properly remove a tick?

Here are the do's and the don'ts.
1. DO: Grab the tick as close to your skin as possible with tweezers or a tick remover kit. https://amzn.to/4jEUBv2
2. DO: Pull firmly upward. If any part of the tick's mouth barbs or head is left there, pull them out with tweezers.
DON"T: Squeeze the tick, put chemicals such as nail polish remover or Vaseline on it or burn it with a match. The Borrelia lives in the tick's saliva and guts and these things make the tick regurgitate it's contents into you increasing chance of infection. https://www.aafp.org/pubs/afp/issues/2002/0815/p643.html
3. Wash area with soap and water and if you have peroxide or alcohol pour over area.
4. You can send the tick in for testing at different labs. Ticks carry many diseases, not just Lyme and you can pick what you want it to be tested for. Here are instructions on how to send in the tick.
5. Keep an eye out for symptoms. Less then 50% of people who get infected with Lyme disease will get a "bull's eye rash", so you can still have Lyme if you don't have the rash. You might also develop flu like symptoms, a fever, body aches, neuro symptoms like brain fog or confusion.
Acute Symptoms and Rash pictures
Children's Symptoms
Dog's Symptoms
6. Learn about what co-infections might be reported in your area. Many doctors will dismiss Lyme if they see it was a dog tick, or any kind of tick that is not a deer tick, but many different ticks pass many different kinds of co-infections. You can get infected with multiple infections all at once with ticks.
Read more about co-infections here.
7. A Bull's Eye Rash, should you get one is 100% diagnostic of Lyme disease. If your doctor won't treat it, go to a different doctor. Also if you have symptoms you will need to be treated. Lyme tests are very inaccurate, especially in the beginning of an infection because your body has not made the antibodies to fight the infection yet, and that is what Lyme tests test for, the antibodies, not the infection itself. There are labs such as Igenex that specialist in tick borne infections. https://igenex.com/
Have fun this summer and be safe!
Here are some maps... but remember cases are underreported and there are cases of Lyme in every single state and every single country other than Antarctica. IF you have some good maps for your country please share them and I'll get them added to this list. I try to use dog maps because they are more accurate then the CDC maps because they don't have an agenda. But if you would rather see the CDC info just google the infection and CDC to see their maps.
Canine Lyme Cases across the US
Map showing Bartonella cases across the US https://www.researchgate.net/.../A-Map-showing-the-total...
Ehrlichiosis Maps
Babesia
A Global Lyme and Invisible Illness Website/Non Profit led by Karen Smith and myself
European Centre for Disease Prevention and Control tick maps

Did you know that Lyme disease tests are very inaccurate?

Well, they are.
The first test a doctor will give you is the ELISA. If you test positive on this, then the doctor will go to do a two-tiered test called the Western Blot.
The problem with this method of testing is that these tests measure a patient's antibody response, they don't directly test for the Lyme bacteria. In the first four-to-six weeks of Lyme infection, most people have not yet developed the antibody response that the test measures so are likely to test negative even though they have a Lyme infection.
And it gets more complicated than that. Read more about the Western Blot testing here. https://www.lymedisease.org/lyme-disease-test/
There are labs out there that specialize in Lyme testing such as Igenex but your insurance is not likely to cover it. https://igenex.com/
Don't take my word for this, here are some articles and research papers on the subject of Lyme testing inaccuracies and which tests are better.
LYME SCI: Analysis shows standard Lyme testing is highly inaccurate
Is Lyme Disease Testing Really That Bad?
Lyme Disease Test Effectiveness
From AI
These antibody tests have poor sensitivity in early Lyme disease (35-50%) and inadequate sensitivity in some of the later stages of Lyme disease (e.g, 75-89% in neurologic Lyme disease).
Lyme disease tests, particularly the standard two-tier serologic tests, can be inaccurate due to several factors:
1. Timing of Testing and Antibody Development:
Early Infection: Serologic tests, like the ELISA and Western blot, rely on detecting antibodies produced by the body in response to the Lyme bacteria. These antibodies may not be present or detectable in the early weeks of infection (window period), leading to false negatives.
Antibody Response Variability: The immune response to Borrelia burgdorferi (Lyme bacteria) can vary between individuals and even within different stages of the disease, impacting the test's ability to detect the infection reliably.
2. Test Sensitivity and Specificity:
Sensitivity Limitations: Tests may fail to detect Lyme disease in some infected individuals, especially during early infection or with certain clinical manifestations.
Specificity Issues: Cross-reactivity can occur, meaning antibodies formed against other microbes or conditions (e.g., syphilis, other tick-borne diseases) might mistakenly react with Lyme antigens, resulting in false positives.
3. Test Variability and Standardization:
Interpretation Challenges: Western blot test interpretation can be subjective, and different laboratories may use varying criteria, leading to inconsistent results.
Use of Unvalidated Tests: Some laboratories offer unvalidated tests or employ non-standard interpretation criteria, which can produce inaccurate results and should be avoided.
4. Presence of Co-infections:
Tick-borne co-infections (e.g., anaplasmosis, babesiosis) can complicate diagnosis and treatment, and Lyme tests might not detect these other infections.
5. Limited Scope of Current Tests:
Current tests primarily focus on detecting antibodies to Borrelia burgdorferi, the most common cause of Lyme disease in the United States, but may not detect other Lyme-causing Borrelia species prevalent in other regions.
Direct detection tests, like PCR, which look for the bacteria's DNA, have low sensitivity, particularly in blood samples, because spirochetes might not be present in high enough concentrations.
In Summary:
Lyme disease testing can be inaccurate due to limitations in sensitivity and specificity, challenges with antibody detection in early infection, variability in testing protocols, and the presence of other tick-borne infections.



Sunday, March 16, 2025

Living through Tumultuous Times with Chronic Illness


Living through Tumultuous Times with Chronic Illness

 Lyme, EDS, Fibromyalgia, Pain, Insomnia, Fatigue, Stress, Doctors, Repeat.

Then throw in all the craziness of the world right now. More stress.

How can we heal when we are in a constant fight or flight mode? How can people that cause the stress live these long healthy lives?

How can other chronically ill patients support people who cause this stress? 

I am just so sad. 

We live in a world where people do not care about others. Not everybody, but too many. 

We have a crazy president and a team of sycophants that surround him and enable him. 

We all risk losing Medicare, Medicaid and Social Security. But so many for some reason, still stand behind this maniac. I just don't understand it. 

Again, I am sad. In pain, and sad. 

I know a lot of balance is needed right now in this world. Trying to do the little things you can, while still taking care of yourself. Trying to stay informed of what is going on in the world, but still taking mental health breaks when you need them.

It's so hard to feel helpless, and hopeless. But I know there are people out there fighting the good fight.

I remember when I used to be able to. Now I watch, glued to my tv screen, watching our country crumble and taking a big part of the world with it. 

This is what I want the world to be. I pray one day it will be.



Friday, February 7, 2025

Back Problems

So not it's February 2025

Just a vent...

My back problems started in 1991. That was the first time I threw out my back. I started doing it more and more until about ten years ago I could no longer twist, bend, sneeze or roll over in my sleep without "throwing out my back. I have gone to so many doctors, pain clinics, physical rehabs. I have had a nerve ablation and epidural. Both of those just made me worse. I have gone to several different chiropractors.

I constantly sublux my ribs and have sharp pain in between my shoulder blades. I have bulging/herniated discs in my upper back and lower back. Several of them. I have multiple meningiomas throughout my spine and arthritis and degenerative disc disease. I have an annular tear and high intensity zone at L5Si probably like everyone in this group.

I have bad reactions to most pain meds so I can't take them. Although doctors and the pain management place pushes them on me every time I go. I just react badly to them. And also it seems like the doctor just want to treat pain but doesn't seem to care about the weakness, pressure feeling and numbness that I experience in my legs and arms.

After thirty years of this pain I finally just called a spinal surgeon myself since my doctors and the pain clinic just refused to refer me. They asked me to do two "current" Mris of my back which I did. But they did my thoracic spine and lumbar, but didn't include the si joints or my ribs which is part of my pain too.

Anyways my regular doctors said she was referring me to a neuro surgeon in Madison, Wi cuz of the herniated discs and annular tear.

So I called the hospital to make sure they got them and she hadn't. So after awhile she called back and said she found them and the doctor will look at them in the next couple days and call me back.

Literally ten minutes later the receptionist called me back again and said ok the surgeon looked at your MRI and said he can't help you surgically. And hung up.

I feel hopeless. There is no hope. All I can do is lay in bed all day and night and just be in pain. How can a surgeon not meet with you? Is this normal? Did you meet with yours before surgery?

I have so much pain in my upper back, lower back, ribs, hips, pelvis, groin, knees to the bottom of my feet. If I stand for more than a minute I have numbness all through both legs. I have numbness in my arms and I cannot sit at all. 

How is this life? And nobody cares. 

Ok, rant over. I know you are all in pain too. I just wonder how everyone got help? And if anyone else has the problem of not being able to take pain meds without bad reactions.

Is there anything natural that works? I have tried CBD, infrared mats, biomats, earthing mats, tens machines, all kind of supplements, chiros, accu, massage. I am trying to meditate, trying to look within to figure out any trauma that might be unresolved, figure out how to heal from within, lots of different diets. 

Is this Lyme? Is this EDS? Is this something else? Is it a spiritual thing? WTF is wrong with me? I see so many Lyme patients traveling and living life and my whole life is in bed. 

A big part of me is giving up. I can feel it. There feels like t here is nowhere to trun. A lot of shows I watch say you have to find the answer within yourself. I can't figure out how to do that. All I know if I lay here day after day getting weaker and stiffer. I dream about pain, I feel it all day and all night, I can't bend, twist, breath deeply, roll over in my sleep or lift anything. But if I try any meds they make me feel sicker and never take away the pain.

Sorry I know this post is not uplifting, but I'm a realist. And this is my reality.

God, please help me and all that are suffering in this world. There is too much suffering.

Wednesday, January 10, 2024

Seven Years Later

 


Seven Years Later

So I see it's been seven years since an update.

Well, I'm still here. I have made some really good memories with my family, friends and pets. I have had good days, and I have had bad. 

I lost my Mom to pancreatic cancer. This loss has been so very hard. And in a way my brother and sister are gone too, they are still alive but I have lost them to addiction and mental illness. This last couple years has been hard on so many levels.

I have inherited a multitude of pets through everyone else's inability to take care of them and from two losses in the family, my Mom and brother in law. I just didn't' think I could take care of anymore pets so when my two 19 year old cats passed two summers ago and my Oliver who was over 19 and my blind poodle Missy, passed, I thought I would just be done with pets. It's gotten too hard for me to take care of them. But here I am, I have my mom's parrot and cat, and my sister's two dogs. I am doing my best to take care of all of them and I love them so, but man it's hard when you can't bend over or walk much. As I write this two of the dogs are sitting here staring at me whining, for what, I don't know. I guess it's time for treats.

Right now where I am at health wise, is basically just not well. My main issue continues to be my back. I just have back pain so bad that I can't sit at all. It's funny because when someone asks you to go do something with them, the first thing they always say is, "you can sit". That is usually the answer to anyone dealing with someone who is sick, they think that sitting makes things better. Well, with this back problem, I can't sit. At all. I can stand for about ten minutes. I can walk for about fifteen. I can lay down. 

The problem is that laying down all day makes you weaker and makes your back hurt in a different way.  It's just not healthy to not move around. So I work on finding a balance between moving around and laying down that won't hurt me or make me too weak. It's very hard.

As I wrote this, I have been in bed for almost two weeks, plus an ER visit for back pain and near fainting spell. They think I have food poisoning. I don't know what I did to my back, I just got this pressure in my lower back that started to grow. It hurts in my back and in my stomach. When I try to stand up my stomach muscles spasm and tighten. According to doctors this is because the muscles that spasm are trying to protect you from further injuring yourself. The part I don't understand is why no one can find what the injury is that my body is trying to protect.

MRIs show lots of bulging discs from the bottom of my spine to the top. Of course I have degenerating disc disease, doesn't everyone have this at 57, according to my doctors they do. I also have arthritis. In my scans there are lots of words like "minimal bulging" and "minor narrowing" and so my doctors just chalk it up to, "it's normal aging process" it isn't that bad. 

But, my pain is bad. Very bad. It is life altering and making me isolated. I just want to play with my grandkids. I want to go on walks with my dogs. Last summer I did lots of these things, when I could. I pushed myself. But that pushing myself, while making great memories, takes a toll on my body. My prolapsed bladder/rectum got worse, my back pain got worse. I just don't understand.

So here I am in bed, another day writing this. I'm shaky from steroids and my stomach hurts from all my natural homeopathic drops, and I just still feel sick. No matter what I do.

I watch my "spiritual" videos all day to keep my mind in a good place. It's hard to do that sometimes when stuck in this sick body. But knowing one day I won't be stuck in it, is a saving grace. Not that I want to die. I want to spend more time with my kids, grandkids and pets. But I do believe after this life is something much better. Although I do believe we cycle through many lifetimes on this earth, so I just want to do this one right so I don't have to keep repeating "sick adventures." 

To keep myself busy, I do a lot of art. My kids bought me an iPad with the Procreate app so I can lay in bed and draw! Best gift ever. When I feel well enough to drive, I go on "picture drives." I will pull over at the farms or my favorite lakes and fishing spots and just shoot away with my camera. 

I keep myself busy. My body doesn't work but my mind does so I do a lot around art. I have a paranormal blog, a photography blog and an art blog. I have several Zazzle stores that I run and lots of YouTube channels. My busiest YouTube channel is called, "Happy Zazzling" and I had originally made it when I was trying to teach a couple other of my chronically ill friends how to make some passive income, as we are all broke. 

So I was having a hard time explaining things in text over chat so I made a couple tutorial videos. Well now I have over 1,000 subscribers and that keeps me very busy. It takes forever to make a video, especially on my slow computer. and answering lots of messages daily. 

But it distracts me from  pain. Pain meds make me sick. I just can't take them, any of them. So I use distraction a lot. Keeping my mind busy. So art and photography and talking to others in the art/photography community is a Godsend.

So anyways, that is my update. That is what I am up to now. I hope whoever is reading this is doing well. See ya soon!

 







Here are some things I do with  my art:

YouTube Channels

My Paranormal

Happy Zazzling

Time for the Holidays

Lisa Hilton

Drawn to You

Mimi, Mom & Me

Mimi's Adventures

Zazzle Shops



Wednesday, November 16, 2016

Accepting That I am Sick



As I lay here, with my body shaking, feeling weak, feeling internal tremors racing through me and kinda feeling like I might throw up, I realize I am sick. I realize I have to acknowledge my limitations and really not feel bad about them.

I am tired of feeling guilty for being sick.

I am tired of feeling guilty that I haven't gotten better.

It's just time to acknowledge what is and live as comfortable and as giving as I can in the last part of my life.

A little while ago my little granddaughter asked me to go to the park. So I drove separately so that I know I can leave if I should have to and not ruin their time. We played, I watched her play, laugh and run around. We walked the trails and sat by a pond. It was so pretty. My body lasted fifteen minutes. Then I excused myself and drove home all shaky.

It makes me sad. I want to stay longer. I am gracious for those lovely fifteen minutes of my granddaughter playing. Of watching my son in law play with her like the good daddy he is. Of feeling the sun on my face. Of hearing the Fall leaves blow in the breeze. Of feeling the pine needles crunch under my shoes. 

I noticed every detail of today. The air, the sounds, the smells, the feelings my lovely playful little granddaughter was experiencing as she run through the trails and grass and went down the slide holding her daddy's and my hands. If there is anything that life is about, it is that right there. Love, unconditional love. Nature. God.



I feel like today might of been my last day out. I came back so weak. I wish I could have a million more of these days, or moments. But I feel so weak. Each outing has become harder and harder. I am sad I won't have these days with my other younger granddaughter. I want to see and feel her joy as she races through the park too.

People tell me to hold on, one coach I worked with lately made me feel guilty as they view my acceptance as "giving up." Actually even accusing me of "sabotaging my health." Few of the doctors that I have gone to will even acknowledge I'm sick. But here I lay all shaky and weak, feeling like my time on this planet is limited, very limited.

And I am sad. I want to watch my grand kids grow up. I pray that I can from wherever it is that we go.


Children and grandchildren, please know that I love you. Please know you are my world. I have left a letter for you on my computer. I love you so very much and if possible I will be watching over you everyday. I promise not to scare you. Haha

Lyme friends, please know that I love you too and hope that you do find your answers. I will be up wherever it is that we go, standing with our fellow warriors that have gone before me.  We will all still be with you. 

Sorry I'm getting very emotional writing this, but I just feel this needs to be said to all of you.

Don't feel guilty for being sick.

Don't feel guilty for not getting better.

Don't feel guilty that you can't do what you want to do. The point is you want to, it's the universe that sucks for not letting you.

Don't blame yourself.

You are trying hard.

Don't let other make you feel guilty for being sick. You did not "negative" think your way into being sick.

Find those that lift you up, not bring you down, talk down to you, are condescending to you, even if they do it in the name of love, light or some other spiritual message.

Know in your heart that if you could play with your grandkids or children that you would. You would drive them to school if you could. You would be more a part of their sports and school shows if you could. You would be a better partner, wife, husband, boyfriend or girlfriend if you could. If you could so those damn dishes or take out the garbage you would. If you could go shopping for yourself or family you would.

It is not your fault that doctors, friends and family judge you and don't understand your illness. 

Just let go of these negative things and realize that you are in the position you are in. Do what you can from that position and make the best of it without feeling guilty for what you couldn't do. Sometimes breathing is all you can do. Sometimes you can watch a movie with your kids, sometimes cook a meal. Each day, each moment will always be different. Don't expect too much of yourself.

Now feel this (((((( HUG )))))))) and anytime you need a hug come back here and feel it again.